Fading...

I feel as if I were to let go and stop trying to bring myself to the attention of others, I would just slip away into the background clutter that fills most everyone's lives. Things are really not going all that terrible for me. So many emotions that I vaguely seem to think that I should be feeling are just out of reach. So tantalizingly close, yet so far away.
It is difficult many days to just keep on trying to feel connected to the world around me. The temptation to just retreat from it all is so strong at times.